if it isn't you, then it's someone else:

i want you to know, i desire the kind of
intimacy that exists between the two wings
of a butter------fly in brilliant motion.

tenderness that can survive even the
loneliness of death----------of life.

and i want to learn with you,
if at all possible, how to be at once
closed---------opened, like said wings
of hummingbird vibration: be----------still
with the one you love,
against the pull of gravity.